The three PPPs

It started with a look, a glance, just something to bring back the memories
I sat in confusion and stared. 'Paper and pen , please'.
Repeating over and over and over again. 'Paper and pen, please'.
Just to focus, just to think, just to start over. 'Paper and pen, please'.
Laughing people around me, no one hears my voice.
I'm now screaming. 'Paper and pen, please'.
Just to write, just to draw, just to think. 'Paper and pen, please'.
Not to him, not to her, not to them or we or us.
Just me. To myself. To my ownself. 'Paper and pen, please'.